I'm in love with my baby girl.. she's way more then I could have ever dreamed of... she's perfect :) I got so lucky because she's soooo good :D she's AWESOME!! I love it that she's mine and that I'm hers and even though she looks NOTHING like me and just like her daddy she's the cutest ever!! I could stare at her for hours and just laugh at all the cute little things she does.  She's so silly and her little smile makes my heart melt.  I've never loved how I love her and she gives my life a whole new meaning.  I've never been so excited to live because I get to wake up to her every day :):):) and I can't wait until she gets older so I could make all her dreams come true... me and her daddy are obsessed with her awww <3 my little worm... she's so cool!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so freeeeeeeeeakin excited!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D and... i love my squishy!! <3

i survived the semester... OMG!! it was fkn hell and seemed never ending but thank GOD it's finally over.  i have a week off to chill and then i start clinicals *sighs* the day i graduate is gonna be the happiest day of my life.  I tried to give up so many times and i cried freakin rivers but Daniel stuck by me and helped me A LOT! i seriously don't think i could have done it with out him.  i'm just glad i'm home.  i've waited for this day for 8 looong months and i thank God that i'm at this point in my life, i swear i thought it would never come.  i'm really happy right now... everything is like so perfect and it's scary... i feel my life is like a puzzle and every piece is fitting into it's place.  i dunno i just wouldn't have it any other way right now... i don't think it's all a coincidence i truly believe that God blesses me every single day and I can't wait to know what my future holds. <3

things are gravvvvvvy! i'm loving life right now :) the only thing i want is to finish this semester and go the fuuuuuk home!! ahh i say this all now but i know i'm really gonna miss san diego.  well not so much san diego but my girlfriends :( i live like 4 minutes away from them now and it's soooo comforting.  i dunno what i'd ever do with out some of my friends seriously i'm so fkn lucky to have them.  it's hard to find good friends in life it really is.  people have come and gone in and out of our little circle of friends but the ones that have been there since day one are still there and will always be there... i know that for a fact.  last night me and the girls went to the sex and the city 12:00 am premier and the movie was AMAZING!!! i can seriously relate to what they have because i feel like i have that with my close group.  we've gone to hell and back together but it's only made us that much closer.  it's not like girls i just met and became good friends with i've known these people for most of my life.  we know everything about each other we think the same, talk the freakin same, it's like never any guessing because we just already know exactly how it is.  it's seriously an unbreakable bond what we have and i'm soooo grateful. :)

ok so i don't write in here anymore.... blah!  i'm getting too old for this heh if anything i'll just make it private so only i could read it because it does help sometimes.  I just don't have time for the net anymore, or anything for that matter.  we started mid-terms this week and we have them for the next two weeks. HELL:( but i have my babe who's brilliant and tutors me before every test.  i kicked ass today i took two tests and on one i got a 95% and on the other i got a 97% :D i was very proud.  i took my math midterm also but we don't get those scores until monday.  i'm scaaaaarrreeed :( i've always been an idiot in math heh.  i just don't like numbers and i never will.  i actually do get the material.. it just makes me sick, literally.  so me and daniel found the coolest little bar all close to our house that we officially claimed as our own.  i love that place and they have the coolest owners.  last sunday they had a big super bowl party and me and daniel were there all day heh we pigged out cuz they made food and daniel got all faded hehe it was fun.  we also went to dave&busters and played a million games of deal or no deal.  i brought my tickets home because i'm gonna start collecting them.  i want a cool prize :)  we'll prob go again tomorrow.  i love that place and they have bomb food.  we took a picture and it was supposed to morph our faces together and make out what our kid would look like.  ok NO! :| our "daughter" looked like a weird little white girl.  not even close.  it was funny though.  we've been getting along so well lately.  better than ever before.  i seriously couldn't be happier right now and for the first time in years in feel like i'm exactly where i should be.  it all just feels so right and i know i'm on the right track.  feels good :)  all i need right now is to see my momma and my babies :( ugh i haven't gone home in over a month and i'm started to get sad!! i talked to Mia today on the phone and she told me to come over tomorrow because she misses me and loves me :(:( i literally cried.  they're not even mine and i don't feel like i could ever love anyone one bit more then i love those kids.  it's kind of scary actually.  ok well i really need to go to sleep cuz i work tomorrow :( sooo *tootles!*

i came home yesterday:) yay!! i missed my mommy :$ and my babies <3 i took my baby nephew to the park yesterday lol he's already talking a lot more it's adorable.  he's only one and he doesn't want to wear his diaper anymore and he doesn't let anyone feed him and he blows his own nose lol i hope my kids come out like that.  my niece Mia on the other hand is such a freakin handful but i love it heh... i was at her house yesterday and she came up to me and told me she wanted to put on this other pants because they were "sooo cute" ok she's like 3 and already acts so grown up.  it's crazy!... kids are cool :) so daniel came down on friday and i don't know WHY but i was like dying :| UGHHHHH i'm so fkn weird!!  i'm with him every single day and i wasn't with him for like just one night and i got like super sad :S that's umm scary! he came over when i got to the valley and it was like i hadn't seen him in years lol i love him <3 we fight like crazy people but i seriously can't live with out him :(  ok so like ever since i started school i have not done absolutely anything :| like NOTHING!! i'm like really surprised that i'm actually taking school this serious.  i dunno i just really want to do well and i am.  i never thought i would ever be this committed to school but it feels good.  i'm getting good grades on all my tests and even the ones that i feel like i'm not going to do well on... some how i end up getting a good grade too... it's awesome :D  i'm very proud of myself :) i just can't wait until i'm done with this and really start my life!  time is like flying by so hopefully this will go by quick.  i'm thinking about going back to school after this to be an RA... it's the equivalent to a PA but just specialized in Radiology.  They offer the program at Loma Linda now and it's just two more years so we'll see.  Life is awesome right now.  I love being in san diego with my boy and my friends and just doing our thing.  My job is freakin AWESOME!! i seriously couldn't have asked for a better job.  My co-workers are super cool and it's just a really cool place to work.  I opened alone on saturday like completely alone heh.. it was kind of scary but i did very well.  It was just me and a doctor i had never met heh but was cool and very young.  I was seriously there for like less then 30 minutes because we just had two post ops to take care of but they paid me like if i had worked 2 hours :) my boss is awesome <3  on another note!  the chargers lost today... umm it was expected but i mean it still sucks... OH WELL!!! i didn't expect much when they're up against tom brady's perfect ass! haha i'm in love with that guy :$... well i'm gonna go eat with my sissy so i'm out *tootles*

This first week in SD was umm kinda crazy heh but it all worked out thank God!  It seems like school is going to be a lot of fun but very challenging at the same time.  Lots and i mean LOTS of reading and I already have a big quiz tomorrow :S so I'm studying all day today.  Me and Daniel are supposed to study together later on but I dunno,  I think I can study better alone but we'll see.  Things have been pretty good with me and him which is surprising.  The first couple of days up there were very stress full for all of us so we were like at each others throats!  But things are better now.  I got a job!! :D and it's a very good one.  I'm so excited.  I prayed for the right job and I swear I got exactly what I asked for. :| I LOVE GOD!!! He seriously always comes through for me I don't understand how people have doubts... either my life has been just one huge coincidence or I'm just a very lucky girl. :)  I'm just overall grateful.  My moms giving us a bunch of stuff for the apartment awww I love my mommy she's so nice <3 yesterday was her birthday so my big brother took us all out :D I love my brother... he bought me the boots I wanted woo!hoo!! :D We went everywhere yesterday and I made my x-mas list for my mom heh... she's so funny.  We're all old and she still hides our christmas presents from us so we have a surprise that day :$ haha she's so cute!  My sister found one of her presents in my moms closet and my mom got all upset about it heh... it's just really funny but cool at the same time.  There's still a very big kid inside me and YES I still like opening presents on Christmas, especially when I have no idea what they are.  I love the holidays even though they are stress full as hell... but all my family is coming this year so I'm looking forward to that.  Well I'm gonna get back to my reading and studying :( I'm gonna take advantage of the peace and quiet that I have right now since my mom took my little nephew to game stop to buy him some games heh... well I'm out *tootles!*